I need a Tow Truck & some Vodka!

This is going to be a post brought to you by a women in pain, so Parental Guidance is BEYOND Recommended. It's freakin' a crime if you let a minor at any age read this. My mouth hurts so FFFFFFFFFFFFreakin' bad I could seriously harm something right now. Braces suck people!!!!!!! Wednesday I had to get elastics put on & I was told that I probably will need to have surgery anyway. Surgery, because he basically said that my mouth was messed up. I mean can you tell a patient that. Is it fair to tell someone that after wearing these flippin' metal, ass brain pinchers for 6 months. Are you freakin' kidding me! So......the problem is that my upper pallet is the size of a small female. Have you seen me? I am by far not a small female! And my lower jar is the jaw of freakin' Frankenstein! Oh, ok T-Rex to be more precise!

Therefore, nothing fits together. Only my K-9 teeth touch....out of all my teeth. Yes, you read that correctly. My lower teeth are trying to match up to my upper teeth & my upper teeth were trying to go up & over my lower teeth like most people. And this is what gave me my 2 car garage gap between my two front teeth! What he wants to do is cut my upper pallet & widen it. Break my lower jaw & make it smaller. Wire my mouth shut for 6 to 8 weeks & then put me in braces for about a year after that. Well, why not reach up & yank my eye balls out of my socket & pull them through my noes while I'm knocked out.

All, I wanted was no gap, that's all. It's like going in for an oil change & being told you need a new engine, stereo system, AC system, headlights, rear view mirror & a bumper sticker that says honk if my shit don't stink.

Yes, I'm in a mood, my mouth hurts!!!!!!! Right now I don't have a gap, thanks to the metal from hell in my mouth. I can deal with that pain. I know after they have been tightened every 8 weeks I will be sore & hurt for a few days. Then I just have to deal with putting on the wax & cutting the wires back as my teeth more. You know, same old same old. But Wednesday they not only tightened the top & bottoms, but put on 4 gorilla bands. I've never had more then 1. And they put bands on both sides. The bands are slowly pull my lower jaw back, hoping that I can skip the surgery. But, now he tells me that my mouth is really messed up & I will probably have to have the surgery any way. Oh my goodness, I think I might just die.
So, my mouth itches with pain, gums are swollen & I'm daydreaming about a tow truck riping my "grill" out of my mouth! What do you think? Should I call Triple A for a tow truck?

Emergency Room, here we come......Again

About 3 minutes after I published my last post the earth around me collapsed. Mahala came up to me & told me her stomach hurt, that she didn't feel well. I offered her some water & she seemed nervous & said that she REALLY didn't feel well. She told me she thought she might throw up. So, I went with her to the bathroom & she leaned on the sink. I tried asking her a few questions, like did she fall, hit her head or.....
She couldn't answer me. I caught a glimpse of her face in the mirror & tilted her head towards me. Her face & neck was white & chalky looking. Around her mouth & eyes it was a deep blue color. She also had beads of sweat on her forehead & chest, even on her arms & back. A lady walked in & I told her I needed help for my daughter. At that time Mahala collapsed over the sink. She was so cold, I had never felt anyone alive that was cold like that. I was terrified to say the least.
The front desk people called the ambulance & there was actually a mother there that was an EMT. What a blessing to have had so many helpful people with us, because I was hardly any help. She was out of it for probably 5-6 minutes before she was able to answer questions. You know how they say time stood still or that 5 minutes was a lifetime. I agree totally, it was like there was an ocean between us & all I had was a spoon to paddle towards her.
When they picked her up to put her in the ambulance there was a sweat outline of her body on the floor. That's how bad she was sweating. The ride to the hospital was not as long as I thought. The guys were wonderful & made both of us feel at ease. Poor Thanh was at home when I first called all frantic. He was rushing to the gym when I had to call back and redirect him to the hospital from the ambulance.
She looked almost normal & not so cold when we were all settled in at the hospital. After several test the Dr. said she was fine enough to go home. But he did say on Monday we needed to go to our regular Doctor. Still confused & worried about what had happened just 8 hours ago we went home. Mahala was exhausted & wanted to sleep. I didn't leave her sight for more then 2 minutes. We were all a little nervous.
The next day she didn't want to go swimming with friends, because she was worried that it might happen again. So, we stayed home & hung out. Friends decided to come over, so that was nice. Sunday night I did try & revisit the situation. I wanted to make sure I had all the facts correct before we saw our Dr. the next morning. She remembered coming to me before the bathroom & some of the ambulance ride. Between that she knows nothing.
Monday morning bright & early we meet with her Doctor.
So, he doesn't even touch her, not even a temperature was taken. And he gives her a diagnosis, vasovagal syncope. Later when we got home I of course looked it up. I don't think everything matches up, but what do you do, he's the one making big bucks, right?
He told me that if it happened again that we would need to do further testing. That we did have heart issues in our family & this could mean something more serious. I had a choice, I could do it now or wait. I decided to go ahead & see the Neurologist. Mahala was worried & I felt it was better to be safe then sorry. So, next week is our appointment.
The Doctor said she could go Monday night to gymnastics. Mahala was a little apprehensive, but decided to go. I watched her every move & thankfully she was as beautiful as ever out there. She has more confidence after going that night & now she is buzzing around here like nothing has happened. And even though it is in the back of my mind I'm letting everything run as it always has. The last thing I need is for her to be a nervous wreck.
More Later

Can I get some headphones please!

It's 9Am in the morning & I'm sitting at the gym with Mahala. I've been up since 6:30Am. I don't do mornings well & I'm feeling kind of grumpy. Honestly I wish I had headphones because it's so damn loud in here. I'm contemplating what would truly happen if I stood up right now & screamed shut the F up! Yes, good morning to all!!!!!
I had a late night, I just couldn't sleep. I watched tv until 2:30Am & then I laid in bed wondering what every ach & pain was. I thought about the blood rushing in my veins & was in awe of the grumble in my intestines. We are like machines & like all machines we get rusty & full apart no matter how well we try to be good to them.
Today after gymnastics I'll go home & make breakfast if Thanh hasn't done so yet. Probably not, I've known him to wait till noon before eating because he was waiting for me. Skylar's friend Zach has spent the past few days with us. This afternoon we plan to go to the movies. The guys are going to see Transformers & Mahala, Kaden & I are going to watch Up. Thank goodness for the unlimited Large popcorn. And use we bring our own dollar store candy & gas station drink. Theater movies for the family can be expensive so we skimp where we can. After the movies we plan to pack,pack & pack some more. I told Thanh I was going to need a nap during some of that packing, because my hands & legs are swollen today.
Well, I'm going to spend the next hour or so catching up on all my favorite Blogs. Yeahhhhh!

We are moving On

I'm such a nerd, I know. I think about blogging all the time. And wonder what all my bloggy pals are up to. Did she get that job, or trying to think of a way to get pant out of Miss Frazzel's clothes. I am always thinking about Almost Single's divorce coming up & looking forward to the pics Camera Guy takes. But, to actually find not only the time, but the strength to get on the computer & participate in what we call the Blogosphere is a whole other can of worms. Right now I am fighting my hands to hold up my fingers to type now.
Darn Lupus is zapping my energy like a busted up tire. I mean once the tire is flat you can ride on the rim & test your luck until you make it home or the gas station. But, you might suffer more Expensive damages. Which is why sometimes I have to let go & let God as they say.
We had a great camping trip in Malibu, but it was different this time. It was real cool in the evening, so I retired to the tent early every evening. This allowed me to snuggle with Kaden & I was able to read a lot. My skin was real sensitive this time, so I had to be under an umbrella all day. No water playing for me. But, I did get to take a ton of pictures & was able to make a great picnic everyday.
Now that we are home it is up to the kids & I to pack up the house, because we are moving. We are moving out August 1st. We will be down sizing tremendously. But, I am looking forward to it. We need this actually. I know sometimes stuff can get in the way of true living. I don't want or need that. Because of my childhood stuff has been a comfort in the past. Now I want to get rid of it. So, that means getting rid of the big house first & then the stuff that's stuffed in it.
Our new home will be 1,600 sq. ft. The house we live in now is 4,000 sq. ft. Thanh works long hours & every weekend but 1 in July we will be gone or he will be. So, I have my work cut out for me. Not only do I need to pack & do the normal moving things a person does, but I need to sort out what we have & donate, throw away & plan a moving sale. Not to mention all the normal Mom things that needs to be done. Will I make it? Of course, I always do. But due to my health issues I need to be organized & prioritize where I spend my energy. That's hard to do sometimes.
Say a prayer & don't give up on me. I think about everyone often & will write soon!

Home sweet Home

We are HOME!!!!! Yeah!!!! I have lots to share. Check back soon.

Malibu Once Again

Lot's to do today! We are getting ready to leave for Malibu once again. We have been watching the calendar since Christmas & now it is finally here. Now the list making, shopping, cooking, packing, unpacking & repacking begins.
I have a 5 page list of all that I need. Sounds like a lot, but with 3 kids, a dog & my Lupus we do need a lot.
I always divide my list by sections. Like car trip, tent, table, cooking, clothes/toiletries, fun stuff & extras. Sometimes my extras category gets as long as any of the other ones. Then I fill in everything we need in each category. I do this a week in advanced. That way we have a few days to add to it. Just last night while I was making dinner I remembered oven mitts & skewers.
After I think it's complete I make my To Do list & Grocery List. Right now I have 78 things to do on my list before we hop in the van early Sunday morning. No, not all of them are for the trip. But, they still have to all get done.
So, then we head out to the grocery store, Target, Sam's & wherever we need to go. Come home & pack the dry food first in our trusty Rubbermaid buckets. And on the top of each food bin I tape a list of everything that's in them. We usually bring 4 bins, but sometimes I can get away with only 3. We like the bins because they keep critters & bears out. And they stack well, plus they're easy to clean.
After that we pack clothes & toiletries for everyone. Once that's done we pack up cooking stuff, paper goods & all that's left. We get the tents, sleeping bags, blow up mattresses & camping stove together. And of course during all this I check my list a hundred times!! Last but not least I precook anything that needs to be. Like this time were having chili one of the nights, so I make it ahead of time & then freeze it. The morning we leave I'll put it in the cooler along with everything else. We take 2 different coolers with us. So, we are ready to go at that point. Skylar & Thanh loads the van the night before, just barely making room for the coolers & our bodies. Oh, & we can't for get the dog.
In the morning we always stop for fast food breakfast. But, for lunch we pull over & eat the lunch I've prepared. The kids get to run around & stretch with the dog. Then we pile back in for the last leg of the trip. Next stop the blue ocean!!! Whenever we travel we always bring books on CD, paper games, snacks, books & small toys. Are kids travel great, so we have even gone cross country with no problem. We all love road trips, good thing for us.
Camping is so inexpensive & fun. We don't allow anything that required an outlet or battery. We play a lot of games, we are a total game family!!! It keeps us close. This year we are going to make a photo journal. The 2 older kids are going to take along disposable cameras & a journal book. Should be exciting!
Well, I'm going shopping today & I have a lot left on my list to do.

Let's Celebrate!

Skylar is officially a High School Student. Yeah!!!!!! We did it!!! I say we because I've been right there in the trenches with him. He has worked so hard it's insane. I think homeschooling has given him not only confidence, but the feeling of being in control of his education. He knows that if he works hard he'll get his work done. And then he can relax or move on to the next lesson. Most of the time he moves on to the next lesson. And that makes me so proud to see his determination & desire for education. So, Saturday we went to Chuck E. Cheese. Mahala has been wanting to go for awhile now, so we thought we could do it for an end of the year thing. We just played games, no pizza. Because afterwards we went out for an early dinner at one of Skylar's favorite restaurants & then hit the Mall.
The mall is such a great place to people watch. I love to people watch, call me sick if you want to. But, I am all about being old one day and sitting on a bench in the park for hours. People will probably call me the creepy, old, mean lady or something. But, that's ok. I'm gonna have a ton of comments about you. How you dress funny & can't control your kids. I'll be thinking how he looks like he could be her Father & how inappropriate it is to leave your kids unattended while you yap on the phone while doing your nails. And don't get me started on the trashy clothes the young girls are wearing & the filthy music blaring from a near by radio contraption thingy.
And you thought I was nice. I'm using up all my sweetness now, just ask my kids.
P.S. I'm very proud & thankful for all my children. Congratulations Skylar!! I knew you would overcome all the educational obstacles that you have had & be Successful. I never doubted you!