At this one foster home I was allowed to go to this youth group club thing like 3 or 4 times…..And this song was played each night and sometimes they played it twice. I still remember the room being thick with the Holy Spirit….I would leave that place floating and Nothing could take me down. I remember that was the Summer I asked the Lord into my heart….they played this song at our church back in 1991, I fell to my knees in tears with a trembling heart as my soul cracked open and I received Redemption, Salvation and Everlasting Life!!!! Thank You JESUS!!!!!! Fast forward to yesterday I was standing and the music began flowing from the speakers and this song enveloped me like a Father’s warm hug and all my worries left me and I didn’t think of Anything except my Jesus. Tears wouldn’t stop streaming down my face as layers and layers of the world were stripped away from me. I became lighter as the words to this song lifted me up closer and closer to my God and it felt like a private communion. I knew at that moment as the song continued on playing that this was a sign from God that I remember that closeness to him. That he is there with me and has forever been right by my side. I had put my Husband’s acceptance on a pedestal over the years, it became a priority to make life pleasing to him. To put him before all other things, including God. I longed for my Husband’s approval, his smile of acceptance and love. I even saw yesterday how I put my Husband’s addiction on a pedestal, glorifying hurtful slip-ups and proud milestones. Don’t get me wrong, I’m forever proud of my Husband’s hard work against his demon…..but, Man will disappoint you my Friends…..God never will. And I was reminded of that yesterday, I will NEVER take my eyes off of him again.
7.10.2015
A Little Bit of Jesus will Fill You Up!
We were a tad late to church and the music was playing and I stood there like
many times before alone in my heart. But, this time was different, I
knew who I was, I knew who created me and loved me. This next hour
wasn’t going to be about making me better to please a human man. This
was my time to connect with the one and only true living God and nothing
was going to disturb my time at his table. I was hungry and he was
preparing a huge meal just for me!!!! The next song caught me by
surprise, but it assured me that I was where I was supposed to be.
At this one foster home I was allowed to go to this youth group club thing like 3 or 4 times…..And this song was played each night and sometimes they played it twice. I still remember the room being thick with the Holy Spirit….I would leave that place floating and Nothing could take me down. I remember that was the Summer I asked the Lord into my heart….they played this song at our church back in 1991, I fell to my knees in tears with a trembling heart as my soul cracked open and I received Redemption, Salvation and Everlasting Life!!!! Thank You JESUS!!!!!! Fast forward to yesterday I was standing and the music began flowing from the speakers and this song enveloped me like a Father’s warm hug and all my worries left me and I didn’t think of Anything except my Jesus. Tears wouldn’t stop streaming down my face as layers and layers of the world were stripped away from me. I became lighter as the words to this song lifted me up closer and closer to my God and it felt like a private communion. I knew at that moment as the song continued on playing that this was a sign from God that I remember that closeness to him. That he is there with me and has forever been right by my side. I had put my Husband’s acceptance on a pedestal over the years, it became a priority to make life pleasing to him. To put him before all other things, including God. I longed for my Husband’s approval, his smile of acceptance and love. I even saw yesterday how I put my Husband’s addiction on a pedestal, glorifying hurtful slip-ups and proud milestones. Don’t get me wrong, I’m forever proud of my Husband’s hard work against his demon…..but, Man will disappoint you my Friends…..God never will. And I was reminded of that yesterday, I will NEVER take my eyes off of him again.
At this one foster home I was allowed to go to this youth group club thing like 3 or 4 times…..And this song was played each night and sometimes they played it twice. I still remember the room being thick with the Holy Spirit….I would leave that place floating and Nothing could take me down. I remember that was the Summer I asked the Lord into my heart….they played this song at our church back in 1991, I fell to my knees in tears with a trembling heart as my soul cracked open and I received Redemption, Salvation and Everlasting Life!!!! Thank You JESUS!!!!!! Fast forward to yesterday I was standing and the music began flowing from the speakers and this song enveloped me like a Father’s warm hug and all my worries left me and I didn’t think of Anything except my Jesus. Tears wouldn’t stop streaming down my face as layers and layers of the world were stripped away from me. I became lighter as the words to this song lifted me up closer and closer to my God and it felt like a private communion. I knew at that moment as the song continued on playing that this was a sign from God that I remember that closeness to him. That he is there with me and has forever been right by my side. I had put my Husband’s acceptance on a pedestal over the years, it became a priority to make life pleasing to him. To put him before all other things, including God. I longed for my Husband’s approval, his smile of acceptance and love. I even saw yesterday how I put my Husband’s addiction on a pedestal, glorifying hurtful slip-ups and proud milestones. Don’t get me wrong, I’m forever proud of my Husband’s hard work against his demon…..but, Man will disappoint you my Friends…..God never will. And I was reminded of that yesterday, I will NEVER take my eyes off of him again.
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