Life with Autism is kind of like living in the house with a wild Tiger. There are moments where you want to just sit back and enjoy the majestic beauty as it frolics along playing quietly. You are careful not to disturb the Tiger because if it's taken away too soon from what it's interested in you could be in trouble. If the Tiger is annoyed or startled you could be in for a loud outburst and thrashing of anger is what will eventually tucker the aggravated tiger out. You never know what it's thinking, you just have to carefully pay attention to his body language, activity and the way it sounds.
This is life with Kaden, we have had a good several days, but we know we can never just let our guard down. We can't just relax completely and forget what truly lurks inside our boy. He is the sweetest child I have ever known. He is caring and can be gentle and is so smart. He hears things and never forgets them, he just adds it to what he already knows. His mind is brilliant the way he works with numbers and figures things out before the question is even finished. It is easy to forget the Tiger he has within him. It's easy to let your guard down and slip into a routine destined for failure.
With the kids recently coming home last Saturday night from their Missions Trip it changed up the schedule just a little too much. We allowed a little more video game time for Kaden then normal, less school work and structured time. We let him stay up longer, get off of his diet and didn't give all the physical stimuli he needs in order to release the energy inside. So, now I sit here Tuesday morning with the walls shaking from his screams. As he bounces his body off of the walls, trashes his room and blurts out things Mommas don't want to ever hear her kids say. I can restrain, I can yell, I can cry, I can do a million things right now, but nothing will stop his behavior. We have had the therapy, we know what to expect and we know what to do. We wait, we pray, we stay strong and the storm will pass and he will end up at my feet making little puppy sounds. I will wait until he touches me, which indicates it's ok for me to touch him. I will hold him and he will hum and make noises. Now that we have a service dog, he comes and helps. He weathers the whole storm usually right beside him unless I'm afraid he may get hurt in the whirlwind of Kaden's meltdown. After Kaden is limp in my arms or beanbag for several minutes he will normally cry softly and then get up like nothing has happened. If it was very physical like it was today he will need to sleep it off after several glasses of water.
As I write this sentence he is putting on his essential oils and sipping water. And now he's grabbing the basket ball to roll and kick up and down the stairs. It's constant pressure and stimuli that his Body needs. He needs education and essential oils to engage and sooth him Mentally. He needs sleep and silence or soothing music to repair and rebuild his Mind. And of course the Lord and Prayer to calm and fill his Soul.
Everyday is an adventure, just some are more enjoyable then others. Pray for us all!